Hi…

It’s January 15, 2010 today.

To my blog pals…I’m married…J

I had my reception last month at my place. Almost of my close family members, relatives and friends near and far were here.

Pals….at last….I’m announced as Mrs. Abg. I’m abang’s wife legally now. Alhamdullillah. Syukur sangat2 ke hadrat ALLAH.

And today, it has been a month I’ve be his wife. I’m so lucky and so grateful to having him as a husband.

I must said that I’m a lucky one as well…And I’m not missed my judges towards him.

The first night, I slept in his arms ..I know I am in a right path and Allah had showed me the right way. InsyaAllah.

Will write again here..soon. Just drop by to tell the good news.

Sacrifice

Salam Aidil Adha..to all.

Today is 27th November 2009. Emmm..it will be another a couple of weeks.

I'm going to be abg's wife soon.....insyaAllah. Lately, before I went to sleep, I used to looked at the ceiling and been thinking...I can't beleive...at last...we will be husband and wife.

I was at his place this evening with my uncle, aunt and cousins. I feel so free. The feeling that I was not been feel for so long since I know him. I've been feel comfortable to put our relationship undercover. I never want people to know. Even my best friend or my relatives. Besides my siblings and the other two beloved cousins.

There are few people I should thank them here for bring myself up to this stage.

First is "Ha". She's the one who had opened my mind and heart to make the decision and move forward. I can't beleive that, I can make the decision after an hour talking over the phone with her. She has been adviced me and make me see the future clearer. Though she is younger than me but I can't denied her thought and sincere opinion. Thanks Ha.

Second...abah. Thank you so much abah for beleiving in what I want in my life, for this time. I'm choosing a husband...my life partner and also your son-in-law. I believe that abah believes in what I see in abg. I also believe that he can count on him. I just can pray that I've made a best decision as well. InsyaAllah. Thanks abah.

Third...I want to thank Z. Thanks for the happiness for many great years. It just that we are not fated to be together. There's no looking back....bye Z. Many the happiness with you too. Thanks Z.

Fourth.... to all my family members....especially adik...who had be with me until this moment. To all my aunts and uncles..cousins far and near and to my circle of friends. Even some were not so happy to hear the news because of abg was the one they expected. ..anyway..thanks guys. And not to forget a couple of husband and wife for helping us get through this from the start till today and again for making this happen as well.

And...lastly...my million thanks to "abg". For wanting taking me as your wife. Without your efford this would not be happen. May Allah will always be with us.

And the ONE that I must thank is Allah the GREAT ...for allowed us to get through until to this day. And still...I will pray that Allah will make all the things get easier and easier till our end of lifes. Semoga Allah menguatkan lagi keimanan kami kepadaNya dan semoga Allag terus melimpahkan rahmatNya kepada kita semua. Amin

And as for today...I am so grateful that I think I've been sacrifice of many kind of things until at this age and soon...I beleive the happines will come. InsyaAllah.
Syukur Alhamdullillah.

Salam aidil adha to all. :)

First Step.

hello..

Alhamdullillah.

That is the first word I must say here.

Only Allah knows how grateful I am by this time. At last I've made my decision and I really mean it.

Friends...I'm engaged.

At last, after three years since I start this blog...with a title "To Be" or "Not To Be", I've choosed To Be. After going through so many things...ups and downs...sad and happy...at last I made the decision.

I accept abg's proposal. Abg and his two relatives came last Saturday and officially we engaged. I was not like the proper way or that way it should be. It suppose to be official engagement ceremony, but I refused. It will be straight to the wedding day. Thanks to abah he accepts my request for that.

All the aunts and uncles were here that night. I had a fully supported from them. I was really touched by their supportive even some of them were only got the news less than three days of the occasion.

The relationship of abg and I was never known by any except few people who are really close to me. It just that in those six months back, I have started introduce him to my aunts.

Infact, I think, after the meetings with his children make myself more confident to settle down. I've been thinking, there's nothing I have to wait. The time has come.

Most of my dearest cousins were shocked when they heard the news. Since we were closed to each other but for such thing like this I seldom share with them.

What was happened that night? I was planned with abg that he will come with the two other person (husband and wife) who are his close relatives. They brought the ring (cincin tanya) and just that. We also had planned that they will only discuss about the big day which I decided to carry out somewhere in end of November or early Dicember.

But suprisely they had discussed beyond of that. Even they have set the date which it was really suprised me. Above of all I'm really grateful of that. Especially my father who I saw, the happiest person that night.

Beleive it or not, abg was here as well that night. He asked me the day before whether he should or should not come. I told him just come over because I want him to meet some of my aunts n uncles that he never met before. Furthermore I want my aunts n uncles who were never met him before to meet him that night as well. It such like malam suai kenal..:)

I know, maybe it was never been done before by other couples. But I did.

Anyway, it was done successfully. I considered that we had engaged that night because the will be no engagement ceremony.

Now, it is about 2 months time until the day will be united. I will still keep my prayer that the things will be going smooth and easy until the big day.

I pray that Allah will always be with us and make all the works can be done perfectly.

Amin.

Thank you abah. At last...for letting me go and beleive in my choice. Thanks for the blessing as well.

28 September ..4 years back

Hey....

If you read read this blog...pls read my very first entry in this blog.

It was sent on the same day which is on the 28th of September as well...but it was on four years back.

Can't beleive it..right. How's the time flies. :)

Anyway...I beleive at this moment...I have choose TO BE.

Save a pray for me ..friends.

A New Beginning Soon.

Hi..

September will be end in few days.

There will come October.

I can't wait to be on weekend. A new step of getting into next phase of my life will begin.

Everything is depends on that coming day.

I pray everything will be done perfectly. InsyaAllah.

Hello.

It's September already.

I've been missing this blog for months. I was busy around. Especially after been reside to new place.

I wish that I can write here more often.

By the way we have gone through half of ramadhan already. I think I am not too early to wish my freinds here "selamat hari raya". Wish all of you have made a preparation for the upcoming raya festival.

For myself, I wish that this raya will be the best one ever in my life. Even there were so many things happened in the family lately but at least I got something to celebrate.

I'm going to make a preparation for my wedding...insyaAllah. The date is still unknown. But I have few dates on my mind right now. The soonest will be beforeend of November and the latest might be early Dec. I can't wait !!

I've met abg's children. I've met his daughters and sons. The meeting was okay. I would say a successful mission. They were not like what I thought before. They were very supportive and even I can feel that I was welcoming into their circle. I just hope thay were not just acted nice in front of abg. Anyway, I want to beleive that...I must think positive.

I think it will be a busy days after this. Even abg and I were planned a very simple wedding as especially abg wanted the simplest one...but I think there still many more to do.

For myself, I just want to have a day of akad nikah and a simple ceremony a week after that. That was what I planned. There will be no dulang hantaran. No special table for the pengantin and no pelamin. It will be the simple want. I want it that way.

I want to serve my guests. Which I think most of them who are really wanted to see who is my soulmate. Some of them were waiting for ages for this special moment. Some of them were really want to see who is the man that I've been waiting or choosing. They want to see, who is the special man that make me turn down their proposal. I mean...there are few suggestion before. They are few old folks...and my father's friend been asked for my hand before.

I'm so sorry. Even this one also (abg) is not my first choice. It is just what people always say, it's fated. That would be another story. For those who were read my blog they will know. Anyway, I'm still grateful.

I love you abg. Thanks for giving me the opportunity.

hello..

1st June today.

I'm almost give up right now.

I even do not know what to choose.

I'm Back..!

Hello.

Firstly .. best regards to my netpals..sakura and zeeta. Hello again.
I'm sorry, I've been promised to write but been missing for quite long.

Anyway, I think it would be happen again. Hopefully.

Well. First thing...I'm still single. Not married yet.

Abg is still around. And I met Z occasionally.

Future plan ? I've hold back my plan (to get married), after my father against my relationship with abg. Even until today, I think I can't move forward and I think I'm most give up, right now.

Anyway, I'm still keep in touch with abg, even we never been out since last year. Abg had gave up his business in my hometown and been moved to another place. He had set up another kind of activities which I guess he wanted to do for so long. And I hope and pray that he will be happy for what he choosed right now.

Me ? I've been transffered. I want do some changes. I met more people now. Mingle with various types of people as well.

Z ? I met him last Thursday.

I don't know what to say, pals. Sometimes, I've been thinking that I'm so stupid in this "thing" . I mean my love life.

Is it me that so stupid or I just can't read any good sign. Or that I'm too choosy. Or I'm just too affraid to make a commitment?