Love

Hi,

It's been a while I'm not write in. I met Z, last week. At last after a quite long silence without phone, sms , email or messages, we met again last week in the very fine evening. And its just get happened like that without any plan.

Even Z had accompany me to the doctor. I'm glad that he still wants to do it. I thought its over already. But this time I saw theres so many changes. We are not like before. Same goes to my feeling towards him. Its just not like usual. I felt there's a barrier. I don't know, but I just felt that we like strangers. I felt that I'm not attracted anymore. (or it may just my feeling). He seems so "cold".

We went to the beach. I drove more 80kms just for being with him. I've been thinking that we could be better, but it's just nothing than been so tired. And I felt that its was not worth it for what I've had on that day.

Or, its just of my feeling. I'm so stupid for the time being. I even do not know to choose for what I want for myself. I hate to choose.

But one thing that I'm very sure, I do missed abg the moment Z left me. That will be another story. Maybe to be the second wife is my real destiny.