Saturday

hello..

I'm going to attend one birthday party today. The whole of us here will be at my aunt's place in Bandar S. we agreed to have pot luck and I've prepared mee curry. I heard they will have a barbercue .

It's quite a long time We did not been together. This is dad's side family. Everybody seems so busy since New Year ! Just imagine...it was the New Year we've been together.

It's not an easy task to get everybody in house today. But InsyaAllah we will manage to meet each other again today. Can't wait to meet my fisrt aunt (mak long). I think it has been 5 months I didn't see her.

I've been to abg's place today. He was so busy. One of the employer was not in today. Means everyone have to do double jobs today. He looked so "mad" ..I don't know what the best word that can describe how he looked just now.

I know, that would be happen when one of the worker did not turn up. Anyway It's Saturday today. He must have a good reason for that.

Abg was look nice in blue shirt. I've been there for about 30 minutes. Many people come and go, but what is the best none of them know about us. Even most of them are abg's friends and mine as well. I would just imagine, if it happened we have rezeki to be husband and wife, they will totally shock...hehehehe.

Sometimes, we made a jokes when someone we both know came in. Even some of his close friends know that he's getting marry soon. Even few of then thought he has married. Abg as usual will make a silly jokes, mostly about kahwin nikah. And I, as usual will only tumpang senyum and laughed. And so far, none of them get noticed about us.

I had a dream last two night. I haven't had dream with abg intimately. But last 2 night it was really nice. We were at the stall...something like that. But my little sister was there as well. The nicest thing is, abg was standing near behind me and took up my hands and I walked closed in front him. I can feel how nice it is. I've been dreaming too much, I guess. That would lead me to that such of dream. Plus it was 6.30am already and I'm still on my bed.

But last night, it was more suprised me. I've dream about z. I was just a dream. I dont want to think so much about it. Anyway..mimpi kan mainan tidur.

I'm leaving now. Will be back in the evening.

It's just suddenly, I feel want to be with abg. He asked me for going out tomorrow. But I haven't give any answer yet.

To Zeeta

Dear,

can u do me a favour?

Please delete my comment in ur blog. Thanks.

Patience

Hello…

I’m not feeling well since Monday.

I had a regular check up yesterday. The result was not so good. I’m not happy with that and the doctor as well. I resisted him to increase my dose. Instead I promised to control my diet and do more exercises.

I felt so weak this early morning. I made up my mind not to go to work today. Called the boss and took one day leave.

Abg had made me upset.

I know he is getting busy right now on. They had a problem in one of their business. Abg had to do something after he had “let it go” for quite sometimes. Kakak unable to manage and now they faced a quite huge problem. I’ve told abg 5 months ago, not to let her do it by herself. But abg refused because he wanted to see how far that kakak can go alone without him. Now they got it. That was the big mistake abg made. The business is still okay, but it’s getting really slow.

Last night he was been to one lady’s house 10kms from here. I know that lady. But I’ve quite doubt about her. I have nothing to say when abg mentioned about her. I might have a wrong prediction. So I just let him do for what he wants to. I’m bit angry with him when he did not call me after the occasion. He only called once he got home. It was about 1.30am. He said that he was unable to make a call because there are few people with him and I know them. He sounds so fishy. Am I sounding jealous?

I should not feel this way towards him. He is doing something to bring back his business. That is his responsibility. I should not say anything. Not even to interfere.

I’ve seen that he was really busy lately. It was obviously compared two months ago. Well, people changed due to the situation.

Am I started to complain?

Anyway, I should know better where I should stand. He’s not mine yet and I’m not his either. I can’t ask more than I ever wanted. He got his responsibilities. And even I cannot take his time with his family. Especially at this moment.

So, I just have to be more patience. Not to depend on him but I have to put my expectation towards Allah. I strongly believe Allah know what best for us.

Love you.

Hi..

Especially for abg

Love you abg.

What A Great Weekend.

hello...

Firstly...Happy Mother's Day to my "anonymous". Hope you had a great moment yesterday.

It's Monday again. I'm not working today. I don't have a mood to go for work today. As I completed my subuh prayer this morning, I just back to bed again and had a short morning nap..hehehe. What a bless having quite extra long sleep on Monday morning.

I just heard they rushed to work..as usual (same with me for the past many years). But I just laid down, not even wanted to go anywhere.

And I had already my mc for today as well. I went to Dr. K . As I sat down I said, I just need MC And asked him to check my BP. And "luckily"...the BP reading is at border and I just agreed with him that he said that I might lack of rest. So..I told him I don't need any medicine, I just need the medical cert. :) Thanks to Dr. K who is always understand me.

Well, lack of rest. Emmmmm. May be. I've been to S on Friday and came back quite late. On Saturday, we had a small occasion for Mother's Days here. We had a great mother's day celebration here with mama plus my great aunties around. As usual, when everybody was here, I just love to see the house full of laugh and chats for like never stop and the kids ran in and out, like never felt tired at all. That what I called "family". And the night was only end after everybody (included my 57 years old aunt) finished watched the FA Cup Liverpool vs (I don't know what club). hehehehe. I never care all the football stuff. But that Saturday night everybody seems enjoyed the match even we just watched the extra time .

And yesterday, Sunday, I did nothing till evening, until abg called and asked for to meet him that evening.

At the same time, I had a tough time with dad right now. He seems not so agree with me. I don't know why. But with that behaviour, its seems to tell me that I've done something wrong. So, that I have to be more carefull in whatever I want to do or say. I saw him not so very cheerful as before. It's seems that he was thinking about something or worrying about something. I still can't catch up what's in his mind right now. But I'll try to find it out.

Back to abg and me, we met yesterday.

Coincidently, I have to fetch my brother at T, by 9pm. So, it was just like a good chance. I left home at 6pm we met at T.

That was the first time we met after he came back from umrah. He looked so handsome. The face was still sweet and fresh. He has put on weight and much fatter than before. We had a great time as well. Had a dinner at small stall beside the roadway somewhere in small town in AG.

We had talked into so many things. Abd had reminded me not to mention to stop what we had started. He asked me to be more patience. We had found someone that we can seek for help, if we need in the future. He's dad's best friend, that abg had met in Mekkah. Alllah is GREAT. I know uncle T, he was so closed with dad. I asked abg to see him again, and if needed, he's the one can help. InsyaAllah.

Well, life has to goes on. Pray. I still pray for good for us.

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May

hello..

it's quite a long period I did not come and write here. It was really hard to find time to be here recently.

Boss will be back to office this coming Monday. Thanks God.

I was hardly busy for the past 2 weeks. Been back home late evening was unusual for me. Not later than 10pm I off to bed. Hope everything will be back to normal next week.

The last entry I was wrote abg just had home.

There are so many things got changing now. Almost into everything.
So many incidents happened once he got back from umrah.
I told him, his prayer had been answered.

Kakak had been changed...not much but still in progress.
The second daughter had been changed much better than her mother. She got a very good lesson for herself.

I'm always strongly beleive, Allah heard for what we asked. It is just the matter of time, that Allah wants to give, sooner or later.

Me and abg had been changed as well. Abg not at all..it's just me.

Since I looked things getting better, I don't have a heart to hurt many hearts.
Since I looked that the second daughter was so closed to him, I don't have a heart to "take away" her father. Abg should spend much much time with her as she's really need him.

In fact, there is a big news since he came back. The second daughter will tie the knot somewhere in July. The whole family will getting busy.

Most of it, is the incident that just happened last Monday..on the 1st of May.

I know abg was not had an intention for what I've thought. I was felt been left out when he was so busy with the incident. He didn't call me for 2 days. I was totally miserible, even I've told Dida in SMS that I don't think that I have the strenght to be the second wife.

I'm not jealous. But Dida said, I was. She might be right.

Anyhow I still love him. Even I've told him yesterday that I would sacrifice. I will walk out. He must agree with me for good. I know abg very well, he'll never listen or agree for that such kind of suggestion.

Well....