May

hello..

it's quite a long period I did not come and write here. It was really hard to find time to be here recently.

Boss will be back to office this coming Monday. Thanks God.

I was hardly busy for the past 2 weeks. Been back home late evening was unusual for me. Not later than 10pm I off to bed. Hope everything will be back to normal next week.

The last entry I was wrote abg just had home.

There are so many things got changing now. Almost into everything.
So many incidents happened once he got back from umrah.
I told him, his prayer had been answered.

Kakak had been changed...not much but still in progress.
The second daughter had been changed much better than her mother. She got a very good lesson for herself.

I'm always strongly beleive, Allah heard for what we asked. It is just the matter of time, that Allah wants to give, sooner or later.

Me and abg had been changed as well. Abg not at all..it's just me.

Since I looked things getting better, I don't have a heart to hurt many hearts.
Since I looked that the second daughter was so closed to him, I don't have a heart to "take away" her father. Abg should spend much much time with her as she's really need him.

In fact, there is a big news since he came back. The second daughter will tie the knot somewhere in July. The whole family will getting busy.

Most of it, is the incident that just happened last Monday..on the 1st of May.

I know abg was not had an intention for what I've thought. I was felt been left out when he was so busy with the incident. He didn't call me for 2 days. I was totally miserible, even I've told Dida in SMS that I don't think that I have the strenght to be the second wife.

I'm not jealous. But Dida said, I was. She might be right.

Anyhow I still love him. Even I've told him yesterday that I would sacrifice. I will walk out. He must agree with me for good. I know abg very well, he'll never listen or agree for that such kind of suggestion.

Well....