Abang oh Abang

Abg was really busy last weekend. The first daughter came hone for holiday with her child. Means, I can’t call him as usual and less sms. All those things I have to sacrifice for the moment.

There’s nothing special happened between me and abg lately. After been a year, I think, things/situations changed a bit. He’s not like 6 months ago. Things getting slower I guess. Maybe, we have known each better now, so more you know less that we can say.

Sometimes I do feel that abg neglect me. I should not feel like that because we are not husband and wife yet. Even he’s still called me everyday, but I still feel that he’s still “far” from me.

For that reason, I’m always asked myself for what I’m really looking for. I can’t ask more than that until we legally husband and wife.

But, deep inside I know abg is really caring. It’s not fair if I make a comparison between him and Z. Z is my past, even we are still keeping in touch, but the story is finished by now.

I just pray that we can get married earlier than we plan.

Abg will be abroad next Wednesday. I’m quite angry with that. I’ll write about it in my next entry, coz that will be another story.