I Met Abg
Good Morning.
I woke up at 6am today. I off to bed at 10.30pm last night.
I was with abg the whole day yesterday.
Till now, myself won't beleive that was happened to me.
Everything was unplanned. It's usually happened like that. Something that unplanned, usually will get into the right track or its will be happen.
I was told abg that I'll visit my aunt on Thursday. He was willing to go with me. I was insisted to go with him , even I did not comfirmed with him.
But what was happened was not that. He was waiting for me since the early morning. And fornot to let him down, and for once of all, I take the chance. I told abg this will be the first and the last.
And for the first time, we were spent our time together. I know that what I've done was wrong. I must admit that. But for being a human, I hope that God will forgive me.
We were in south yesterday. We talked and talked into everything. Had discussed about kakak and things that we're going to face from now on. I wanted to end up the relationship. I realy meant it. I wanted to end up. But not him. He confessed that he can't live without me. That was the very easy and fast reason that he can give to me. Man...what else you can expect from him when he's desperate.
The meeting yesterday might be the best and meaningful for him but not for me. Poor abg, he was really cares and loves me. But not me. I don't really have that such strong feeling towards him. Maybe the experienced really gave me the good lesson to be more careful in this game named love. I can't do, like I did before. But I still know that I can be a great lover. Its just that it will takes some times.
I think he felt so greatful for having that such long time with me. I gave him a chance. I asked him to sent me back at 4pm, but he insisted and I am only got home at 8pm instead.
Even I realised that I don't that same degree of that 'such' feeling, like him, but at time I did enjoyed the pleasure for being with a man. Yes, I have to admit that I do missed for being cared and loved by someone. I do missed all those things that used to do by lovers. And yesterday, I was tried my best not to showed for what I felt deep deep inside. But I can see it clearly in abg. He really can't stand for being with me. And I think that was normal.
Being with him also, was brought back my memories. I was used to hold Z's hand wherever we go. We will hug each other and kissed goodbye. Z will kiss me whenever he wants. But I don't want to repeat the same fault. I have to left it behind in order to see a better future.
I did told abg, if we want to start something good, then we must be good at the start.
And lastly to abg, thank you for yesterday.Even I was started with such miserable feeling but at last it was ended with quite "ok" . Thanks for telling me that you love me, even I've heard it for many times from you. And once again, lets us just leave it to God for what is the best for HIM.
I woke up at 6am today. I off to bed at 10.30pm last night.
I was with abg the whole day yesterday.
Till now, myself won't beleive that was happened to me.
Everything was unplanned. It's usually happened like that. Something that unplanned, usually will get into the right track or its will be happen.
I was told abg that I'll visit my aunt on Thursday. He was willing to go with me. I was insisted to go with him , even I did not comfirmed with him.
But what was happened was not that. He was waiting for me since the early morning. And fornot to let him down, and for once of all, I take the chance. I told abg this will be the first and the last.
And for the first time, we were spent our time together. I know that what I've done was wrong. I must admit that. But for being a human, I hope that God will forgive me.
We were in south yesterday. We talked and talked into everything. Had discussed about kakak and things that we're going to face from now on. I wanted to end up the relationship. I realy meant it. I wanted to end up. But not him. He confessed that he can't live without me. That was the very easy and fast reason that he can give to me. Man...what else you can expect from him when he's desperate.
The meeting yesterday might be the best and meaningful for him but not for me. Poor abg, he was really cares and loves me. But not me. I don't really have that such strong feeling towards him. Maybe the experienced really gave me the good lesson to be more careful in this game named love. I can't do, like I did before. But I still know that I can be a great lover. Its just that it will takes some times.
I think he felt so greatful for having that such long time with me. I gave him a chance. I asked him to sent me back at 4pm, but he insisted and I am only got home at 8pm instead.
Even I realised that I don't that same degree of that 'such' feeling, like him, but at time I did enjoyed the pleasure for being with a man. Yes, I have to admit that I do missed for being cared and loved by someone. I do missed all those things that used to do by lovers. And yesterday, I was tried my best not to showed for what I felt deep deep inside. But I can see it clearly in abg. He really can't stand for being with me. And I think that was normal.
Being with him also, was brought back my memories. I was used to hold Z's hand wherever we go. We will hug each other and kissed goodbye. Z will kiss me whenever he wants. But I don't want to repeat the same fault. I have to left it behind in order to see a better future.
I did told abg, if we want to start something good, then we must be good at the start.
And lastly to abg, thank you for yesterday.Even I was started with such miserable feeling but at last it was ended with quite "ok" . Thanks for telling me that you love me, even I've heard it for many times from you. And once again, lets us just leave it to God for what is the best for HIM.
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