The Past is Past

Hi.

What is past is past.
It's been a week, I've been through one of the most of my hardest days.
Well, I think I've been went throught much greater than this. But this time its quite hard for me as well.

When it comes to love, it must be hard to get through when there are problems. Should i called it "problems"..? I don't know. Maybe I've been through much bad than this, so for this time I just feel that this is one of the thing that I have to face for what I've been choosed fron the day 1.

I don't know whether I'm too stupid to throw myself in this situation. I choosed this few months ago, but I laid it to rest a week ago. I don't want to go through anymore. No more.Not again.

Kakak had accused me for what had happened to her family. She lost her trust in me. She doesn't beleive any words from me anymore. Everything is over. Me is like the most bad person she ever met in her life. I do understand for what she felt right now. She has a right to said that. And she is right. She defenced for whats belong to her. She tried to protect her life, her family, her aset.

Until today, I still dont't know what should I do. I feel so helpless. I feel want to run away..far far away. But I can't. I've been thinking how bad I am for ruined somebody's life. I've ruined a a one good lady's life. Even I don't know much about her, but I know how bad she felt right now.

I have to appologise for what I did for the past few months to her. I'm sorry kakak. I'm really meant it. God knows for what I felt right now as well.

I will just take for what God prepared for me. Thanks God. I beleive in YOU. Amin