The 5 Days

Hi,

I was away complete 5 days since Friday.
At the beginning, I just wanted to keep a distance from abg and Z.

But again, it is not as I planned. Everything is changed now.

No more with Z. And am getting start no more with abg as well. The dufferent is only that abg and me still keep contact each other. Abg had a BIG problem. I can’t leave him alone. Remain, but not as before. I just want to be there as a friend, not more than that. Abg understood about that. Until the problem is settle, everything will be as normal. But I can’t see the future, I mean, his future. His marriage, family and children. He really had a bad time right now. And it is not impropriate, if I just leave him like that. I know him started as a friend, friendship never die, so I can’t leave him at the time that he needs a friend. I laid down the plan. I’m stop preparing myself for the thing that I want to do so much before. I surrender. Maybe later. Sometimes, there’s something more important that we have to do first. We can’t do two things at one time. Be patience. That is the right thing to do right now.

5 days away, I thought that I would find the peaceful of mind since I’m away from here. But it was not as I thought. Anyway, I was quite happy.

I tried to do something that would help me to “forget” for what I’m having right now. It’s 80% successfully until yesterday. I had a great time with my 2 lovely cousins and aunts. We’ve been to many places.

I had a quite long journey on Sunday. I went to one of the successfully entrepreneur. He is a millionaire now at his age of 32. A very nice and humble malay man. Lots of passion towards all kind of businesses, especially in food sector. No wonder he can be a millionaire at that age. Had a great lunch at his place. Full of friendly and nice family members. We have been served like in 5 stars hotel, with the great food especially. Thanks Allah for those nice meals.

And at the same day also, I have been to a very remote place, which the only house that can be found there. Far away from the town, I visited an old lady that lived with her 90 years old mother, with a one down syndrome daughter who is 42 years old this year and 2 others son who is not really in a good health and one daughter who is she fully depending on. I’ve been there before a year a go. Tina, I still can remember her name. A very jovial girl age 23, had complete her diploma, but scarifies all she ever wanted to do just for her other and the whole family. I’m really respecting her for that. What else you expected a girl at that age, for sure lots of fun and freedom, but not Tina, she left over everything just for the sake of her family.

Alangkah bagusnya jika semua anak2 muda ada perasaan yang sebegitu. Tahu apa itu yang dinamakan tanggungjawab. Tahu apa ertinya “taat” kepada ibubapa. Tahu mensyukuri dengan apa yg ada. Itu yang ada pada Tina. Tina memikirkan ibunya lebih memerlukan dia lebih daripada apa yang dia sendiri mahukan. Berbahagialah ibu Tina, memiliki anak perempuan yang sebegitut rupa. Tina mungkin tidak sesempurna atau sebijak mana, tapi dia sudah punya kesedaran dalam dirinya.

I wish that I can be a good daughter as Tina. It would be enough for me. I want to serve my parents as they deserve for it. Membalas budi mereka itu satu keperluan kepada kita semua. I have to be grateful for all these.

Ada anak, yang tidak pernah memikirkan semua itu. Malah mudah lupa siapa yang melahirkannya. I would only pray that for all parents who have that kind of sons or daughters, one day they might be change dan sedar siapa diri mereka.

I’ve been to one humble man’s place as well in town name Jasin. It was quite far inside, part of estate. He lived there with his wife, and children. A another very humble family. They live in a small wooden house. He is a gardener (government servant). He was detected with leukemia years before and now completely recovered, dengan izinNYA. A very happy man, I think he is about 45. I just love his cheerful and friendly hospitality.

Actually I was just accompanying my uncle. I don’t know why he brought us to those places. Maybe he wanted us to see what life means by all. Yes, we learned a lot that day.

Back home nearly 1 am.

I had lots of things during the 5 days.

I was in Genting on the Christmas Eve. :) that would be another story.
I was in one restaurant running by a kelantanese, somewhere in Bandar Sunway.
I was in 10th Floor of The Mall, for the first time. The place I wanted to visit for so long, at last…..
I was in KLCC ..hehehehe. I don’t know why people like KLCC so much.
I was in KL actually for the past 5 days, except on the Sunday.

Now I’m home again. To my home town. A very small and peaceful small town. It was cloudy when I arrived here yesterday. The moment I reached the border, I can smell the fresh of the mountain, the trees; I missed all those so much. As I’m writing my blog from here, I can see the cloud around the mountain. It has been quite cold here since the rainy days. This is the normal view when it comes to end of year. The place would be wet and bit cold.

And, once again, the new year is just around the corner.