I'm Not Feel Good Today
hello...
I was in S this morning for a seminar. And I'm got back home at 6.00pm.
The "outcome" from the discussion last 2 nights was "so-so".
Due to that kakak was getting worst level. And I don't have any idea how to help out the problems now. But abg was in the other hand, he's so calm and easy for what is happening now. "sedikit goncangan diberi Allah, insyaAllah pasti ada kebaikan" he said.
I knew it, from the start. Abg, whom I know, is a man with his strong beleive and knowledge, will always "calm" to overcome this such of situation. If other man, I don't know. Not many people can stand. Life, full of suprise. Never lack of dugaan and ujian. None of us will not get excuse from this, its just the matter of how good that you take and manage it.
Since I heard that kakak was not really can cope with the situation after the discussin, I was felt terribly bad. Today is the second day. She even did not go for work, for two days already. I asked abg of her condition time to time.
But only today, I just started to felt very, very gulity for what I've done to her. At once I felt I've done nothing to her. But when think twice, I felt I'm the one who made all those things happened. I told abg, via my sms(s). I regret for what I've done for this past 8 months. I should not started it. I should not. I should not !!!
Abg was not agreed with me. And he started his "lecture" over the phone. I know, in the perspective of our religion, it would make quite difficult to understand. I'm almost give up. When he came to soal siapa kita hambaNYA, siapa pembuat and all those things, I would only keep my mouth shut.
And after 30 minutes talked over the phone, I felt back to "normal".
I've been thinking as well, for what I've been thought for the rest of the day today, which make me feel "sick". Even today,I've made up my mind, to ask him politely to stop all these for the sake of kakak. I've been thinking for the goodness, for kakak, I must sacrifice. I can do that how hard it will be. I tol abg, he must do that as well. But abg refused. He said, that will not be the best way to solve this. And he keep continued assured me that I got nothing to do for this. Even he admitted that, he need me badly for the time being. I understand that.
I thank Allah for giving him peaceful. I will promised to keep at the best level to help him out. I don't want him to think about marriage at the first or second place right now. I told him that, just now. We have to forget that thing at the moment. Bring back kakak to be "herself" again must be the first agenda. We agreed to keep praying so that kakak, and the two lovely daugthers will see the truth from this incident.
And again, as he said, something bad for us that we hate most might be good for HIM. We have to learn to accept it. Tiada yang sia2 dijadikan oleh Allah untuk hambaNYA. I agreed with that.
Nite.
I was in S this morning for a seminar. And I'm got back home at 6.00pm.
The "outcome" from the discussion last 2 nights was "so-so".
Due to that kakak was getting worst level. And I don't have any idea how to help out the problems now. But abg was in the other hand, he's so calm and easy for what is happening now. "sedikit goncangan diberi Allah, insyaAllah pasti ada kebaikan" he said.
I knew it, from the start. Abg, whom I know, is a man with his strong beleive and knowledge, will always "calm" to overcome this such of situation. If other man, I don't know. Not many people can stand. Life, full of suprise. Never lack of dugaan and ujian. None of us will not get excuse from this, its just the matter of how good that you take and manage it.
Since I heard that kakak was not really can cope with the situation after the discussin, I was felt terribly bad. Today is the second day. She even did not go for work, for two days already. I asked abg of her condition time to time.
But only today, I just started to felt very, very gulity for what I've done to her. At once I felt I've done nothing to her. But when think twice, I felt I'm the one who made all those things happened. I told abg, via my sms(s). I regret for what I've done for this past 8 months. I should not started it. I should not. I should not !!!
Abg was not agreed with me. And he started his "lecture" over the phone. I know, in the perspective of our religion, it would make quite difficult to understand. I'm almost give up. When he came to soal siapa kita hambaNYA, siapa pembuat and all those things, I would only keep my mouth shut.
And after 30 minutes talked over the phone, I felt back to "normal".
I've been thinking as well, for what I've been thought for the rest of the day today, which make me feel "sick". Even today,I've made up my mind, to ask him politely to stop all these for the sake of kakak. I've been thinking for the goodness, for kakak, I must sacrifice. I can do that how hard it will be. I tol abg, he must do that as well. But abg refused. He said, that will not be the best way to solve this. And he keep continued assured me that I got nothing to do for this. Even he admitted that, he need me badly for the time being. I understand that.
I thank Allah for giving him peaceful. I will promised to keep at the best level to help him out. I don't want him to think about marriage at the first or second place right now. I told him that, just now. We have to forget that thing at the moment. Bring back kakak to be "herself" again must be the first agenda. We agreed to keep praying so that kakak, and the two lovely daugthers will see the truth from this incident.
And again, as he said, something bad for us that we hate most might be good for HIM. We have to learn to accept it. Tiada yang sia2 dijadikan oleh Allah untuk hambaNYA. I agreed with that.
Nite.
posted by cahaya at 10:16 PM
4 Comments:
Hello Sweetheart,
I guess you must be feeling "different" maksudnya you mesti dalam satu situasi yang perlu you fikirkan , dearie being a wife is something every woman has dreamt about , when I was single I was so excited to be somebody's wife , but then again when you are into it , the senario is different , now since you are a wife you are tight with some rules and some things which is at times kita rasa terkongkong. Mungkin sebab agama , you are right about me being a lucky person , everyone says that cos my husband he is a good man.
So marriage is a gamble , ada yang untung ada yang rugi . Only people who are ready SHOULD be in this situation if you are not then just don't think about it NOW ... cos i always tell you and my single friends that you cannot turn back especially when the little one is around later.
hi anonymous,
You are right with the statement that once we got married, no way to turn back. Not even in the matter of marriage, but almost into anything tthat once we made decision.
Anyway, I'm quiet disagree with marriage is about a gamble. Why we have to gamble our own life. I'm much agree if we said, marriage is about the thing that we have to work on it. Do not make it a gamble cos, when you gamble you got to make it win or lost.
Anyway dear, I do understand for what you were trying to tell me. You absolutely right for what you've thought. Nobody can say you right or wrong, it will just a matter that people will agree or not. That's all.
And I do understand as well and much appreciate for what you have wrote here, coz i can't denied your experienced. You dah mengalaminya , so I'm pretty sure you know much better than me. Tapi sudah pastinya dalam situasi dan keadaan yg berbeza..right?
And again, all the best.
TQ. :)
Hello Dearie ,
Got your message right ...
Well , as I always says you know best about your relationship...
Dearie , marriage is a gamble , we don't know what happen before and after married yes work on but kalau dah the other party sucks how can you work on dearie ..
Remember cos marriage is about two people..
dear anonymous..
Sure, I'll be always remember that, marriage is about two (2) = 1+1 people.
That would be the great advise from you which I will remember always in the future, especially once I got married nanti. :)
have a good week to you.
:)
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