Abg is leaving .......

Hello.
Assalamualaikum.

There will come Monday again.
This will be the longest week for me I guest.

Abg had leaving for perform his umrah just now. He called me few minutes before the boarding. I’ve not called him today. Not even a single call. But I did sms him three times. I know there are many people will be around today. And I’m not wrong about it at all.

He called me 5 minutes before Maghrib and once before he enter the plane. I know he would call me.

I just can talk about 10 minutes on the first call. At last he brought his mobile. Hopefully he had the international roaming service. He told me kakak had cried aloud. She hugged him. I know she might be so sad and felt guilty towards his husband. Abg had told me earlier, last two nights. They had a talk. Abg had said that she will know what it would be when he’s not around anymore.

And I’m very sure, kakak had felt it tonight, the moment she saw abg would left him. Even he will be going for only two weeks, but I think it would give such a big impact to her. I knew it, she’s still love abg.

I’m really happy when abg told me that good news. In the other hand abg said, he was laughed when he saw that. I told him that was not good of him to laugh at her. Kakak had shown her feeling. I know kakak was regret for what she had done to him. She might be very sorry for that. Its just she might felt so ashamed so that she just prefer to be more reserved. Until tonight, when she saw abg was leaving her, now that she know how hard it would be for her.

I’ll pray that she will be okay.

For me….? I will be missing abg for the whole thirteen days. I saw him this morning, but I don’t have a heart to get near to him. I don’t know whether he saw me or not. I felt so sad to see him for leaving. We’ve met on Saturday. That was good enough for me.

He was getting busy when the schedule has been changed. I wish that I can bid him goodbye at the airport. But I hold that wish. Even I’ve been hold myself not even to make a phone call, even I’m really dying to do so. I’m nobody to him either.

This would be a good start again for the whole family. I pray kakak would be changed for good. I hope she’s really learnt from the past. I can feel that this is the good start. The real one. I have never failed to remind abg to pray a lot and pray hard in tanah suci. Pray to Allah that the whole family will get together and everything will be as before.

I’m off to bed now. There will be no wake up call in the morning for me for the coming 2 weeks. I’ll be miss him. Hope to get a sms once he touch down. I pray that abg will be in a good health and can go through to do his umrah without any problems.

I love you abg.