Far or Near
hi,
due to the meeting with abg last sunday, I felt really guilty till today.
I've off my mobile phone since this morning. I was sent him one sms in the morning. he called me 5 times in the morning and four times in this afternoon. He left 3 voice messages and I reply him once.
Well, apa nak jadi?
Do i sound helpless?
I asked mama yesterday about me and abg. About my relationship
She replied every message from me. I can’t stand for feeling very guilty for what I’ve done last Sunday. I’m not supposed to go meet him that day. I was with him last 2 weeks, but I did it again last Sunday.
Mama is my mother’s third sister. She is the closest one to me right now. She is the one who I can turn to when come to this kind of matter. Mama had advised me which I’ve expected what she would say to me.
Due to the advised as well, I became quiet today. I told mama, I will let abah know when there’s come the right time. What make me sms mama?
Abg had told his wishes to me last Sunday night. He really wants to marry me. He really meant it. We made a plan. I asked him to see mama and uncle A. I can trust them. I can’t tell abah by myself. I can’t. I’m not strong to do that. That was my weakness.
Acik asked me to tell abah all about us. But I told her that I need her and uncle A to do that for me. Abg had agreed that he can meet them.
But for the while, I prefer to be silent.
due to the meeting with abg last sunday, I felt really guilty till today.
I've off my mobile phone since this morning. I was sent him one sms in the morning. he called me 5 times in the morning and four times in this afternoon. He left 3 voice messages and I reply him once.
Well, apa nak jadi?
Do i sound helpless?
I asked mama yesterday about me and abg. About my relationship
She replied every message from me. I can’t stand for feeling very guilty for what I’ve done last Sunday. I’m not supposed to go meet him that day. I was with him last 2 weeks, but I did it again last Sunday.
Mama is my mother’s third sister. She is the closest one to me right now. She is the one who I can turn to when come to this kind of matter. Mama had advised me which I’ve expected what she would say to me.
Due to the advised as well, I became quiet today. I told mama, I will let abah know when there’s come the right time. What make me sms mama?
Abg had told his wishes to me last Sunday night. He really wants to marry me. He really meant it. We made a plan. I asked him to see mama and uncle A. I can trust them. I can’t tell abah by myself. I can’t. I’m not strong to do that. That was my weakness.
Acik asked me to tell abah all about us. But I told her that I need her and uncle A to do that for me. Abg had agreed that he can meet them.
But for the while, I prefer to be silent.
posted by cahaya at 3:08 PM
2 Comments:
Hello Sweetheart ,
Kenapa ni :) Tell me darling why are you behaving like this . Okay first of all are you okay with what you want to do and are you sure of the thing that you want to do next ...
I know this is a difficult decision for you to tell especially abah ... BUT you have to really think cos I've gone thru it once and I failed and after that the next man proposed me I marry him and now I think about the whole thing ..... I don't know ... i guess this is what we call it jodoh .....
So if your jodoh with him trust me everything will be fine ... You take care and pls on the phone .... Kesian abang
dear anonymous,
i'm started acting like that when I saw abg getting serious about the relationship.
But in the other hand, he's still battle with his family problems. even now its seems that both of his daugthers are okay, but he's still need to manage kakak.
it;s not an easy one dear. the second daughter wants to get engange soon. abg and kakak will proceed their 'case' to syariah court soon as well.
I know i have to be patience. it may not take a week or a month. Definitely I trust on jodoh. It's just sometimes, I'm lost the control.
Btw, I can't hold the phone off that long myself as well.. I missed him so much dear. The much I want to fight this feeling, the greater I suffer.
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