Be Thankful.
Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Dear Allah, I’m very thankful to YOU for what YOU had given to me for all those years until today. I pray to YOU Allah, please lead me to the right way. Please do not stop to give your rahmat and I believe only YOU that can take a good care of me and the rest of us this world. Amin.
When I sit here typing my new entry, there must be something that I want to write on. One of the intention I started my blog in 2005, is I think this is a good place that I can “throw” myself whenever I can’t turn to anyone else.
I can write what ever I want to write. I can say what I ever I want to say and felt. Even I can blow my anger, and retell all those sweet fairy tales that I had. I might not tell or share all the things or experiences that I had in my life, even to my best friend. But I can do that here. J
Blog is really my place now. It might get sakura and zeeta feel bored after a while. I’m sorry pal. Anyway, thanks for the thought and those points of view.
Hey, I don’t have dating session in this coming time. Ouch! That was awful. I know I will miss those dating things. But I can write here. Frankly, I did feel jealous; you know when I’m seeing people dating. LOL.
Am I going to have it..again..? hehehehe.. I don’t know. I hope so.
I’ve been thinking that I might not do all that dating-mating session anymore. I feel good enough for what I had, I guess. I had many great times and moments. I just think that if it happens again, it will not be going the same anymore. Mestilah tak sama..kan?
Was that sound I’m still living in my past?
Well, I don’t care. I know what I do and what I want. We will see the progress from here. Who knows, I might meet someone next week…Someone new, I mean ….hahahahaha.
I DON”T THINK SO !!
But I don't want to be arrogant. I do take whatever Allah give me. InsyaAllah.
Dear Allah, I’m very thankful to YOU for what YOU had given to me for all those years until today. I pray to YOU Allah, please lead me to the right way. Please do not stop to give your rahmat and I believe only YOU that can take a good care of me and the rest of us this world. Amin.
When I sit here typing my new entry, there must be something that I want to write on. One of the intention I started my blog in 2005, is I think this is a good place that I can “throw” myself whenever I can’t turn to anyone else.
I can write what ever I want to write. I can say what I ever I want to say and felt. Even I can blow my anger, and retell all those sweet fairy tales that I had. I might not tell or share all the things or experiences that I had in my life, even to my best friend. But I can do that here. J
Blog is really my place now. It might get sakura and zeeta feel bored after a while. I’m sorry pal. Anyway, thanks for the thought and those points of view.
Hey, I don’t have dating session in this coming time. Ouch! That was awful. I know I will miss those dating things. But I can write here. Frankly, I did feel jealous; you know when I’m seeing people dating. LOL.
Am I going to have it..again..? hehehehe.. I don’t know. I hope so.
I’ve been thinking that I might not do all that dating-mating session anymore. I feel good enough for what I had, I guess. I had many great times and moments. I just think that if it happens again, it will not be going the same anymore. Mestilah tak sama..kan?
Was that sound I’m still living in my past?
Well, I don’t care. I know what I do and what I want. We will see the progress from here. Who knows, I might meet someone next week…Someone new, I mean ….hahahahaha.
I DON”T THINK SO !!
But I don't want to be arrogant. I do take whatever Allah give me. InsyaAllah.
posted by cahaya at 11:52 PM
4 Comments:
Hi cahaya,
noo laah...i never feel bored reading
your blog..it's your blog and you can write whatever you wish...no one have any right to stop u..right?
anyway, about those ppl who keep giving u advice...it is either because they care or they are just being nosy...:D but mostly nosy i guess..ehehehe...
i used to hv collegues who likes to ask me about the ppl i've been seeing (back then when i was having an affair with the married man)..They knew that i've been dating the guy but still insisted to get every details from me...u know why?? just to spread the story around!!imagine how sick people can be sometimes...of course we know to hv an affair is a bloody wrong thingy to do...and they keep asking when am i getting married...as if i can pick any date and marry any guy i like...stupid question!
these ppl will never stop bothering u...unless you keep the distance...as for u, since they are mostly your family members...u definitely cannot avoid them...but i guess u can see them frequently...just to minimise the heartache...
your past will definitely haunts you...altho the incident happened for almost 3 years, i still have nightmares sometimes...
as for dating session....it is either you get to know the person from the internet (which i think it depends on luck..it is either u meet a real gentlemen or a psychopath) or u get to know the person through ur friend (and sometimes they also suck!!) well...it really depends on luck i guess...but it doesn't hurt trying, does it? ;) the experience?? it might not be the same...but hey who knows, it might get even better??!!
--sakura--
hi sakura,
hehehe..great that u're not getting bored yet.
yes, I do hope that somedays it will trigger me again. I am not totally regret for what had happened. And I'm not giving up on faith. It is just that maybe I need for sometimes for start a new one.
True, we never know, it might be better.
Been asking "when u will getting married" was normal for me especially when the age are getting early forty. READ : "I'm getting old, pal"
Well,"lali dah" with those cepumas question. I just smile and said..InsyaAllah...it's coming.
I'm still surfing the internet but did not looking as before.
I used remember during my netting activities years ago. I used to have many netters and even went to few gatherings. Lot of friends around that I know only through the internet. Since those days chat rooms a very popular one.
hehehe...
anyway, thanks again sakura.
no prob pal ;) ,
yup..i guess i have to agree with u on that one..to start all over again...it is a very tiring process...i guess because we keep on counting our age..and plus to find a single man out there in our batch is not that easy...most of the guys i dated are younger than me...(sad but true..) but what choice do i have? if there is any, it is either they are married or they happen to be gay...tak pun drug addict.. horrible!! and yet i wonder why is that people around us just couldn't understand that... pity us!!
and yes, u should not have any regrets on whatever happened in your life..because that's what we called the "Life experience"...it is just one of the learning process in life...
ha..tu byk kawan chatters...this is the suitable time for u to keep in touch with the old friends...i'm sure they hv alots of candidates on their minds!! ;)
--sakura--
Hi Cahaya ,
So sorry for not be in contact with you , I am very busy , my career is not so good the last few months. Now I am slowly back and need to settle somethings .
I hope we can meet up someday , maybe we can have a chat and say hello , and you too sakura , glad you are there to read cahaya's entry ...
You take care cahaya , please do send me message , I will always remember your URL . Don't worry you are always in my mind and in my heart my dear.
Miss you much
Zita
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