Genting
Hello.
The moment I reached the summit of Genting, I told myself, I have to write on this (about Genting) in my blog. I want to. It was the first time for me and I don’t know for how many times for “him”.
This trip to Genting is not in a plan as well. I’m not into planning in everything I want to do. Not all, except in work purpose. So, I was in Genting on the X’mas eve.
I never had been there before. I’ve heard and saw many interesting “things’ happening up there. Since then, I just wanna be there and experience it by myself. And I was there, at last, last Saturday.
We left KL at about 5pm and reached there an hour later. I was surprised, he brought me there. We were not so good the day before. Even he was late an hour. I thought he was canceled the meeting. We were just planned for dining at our favorite place. Nothing than just a casual meeting. But, thing was changed when he drove after we had our meal in one of the popular stall somewhere in Melawati. I’m not familiar with the places up there. But I’m started noticed that we were heading to Genting when he heading to Kuantan express way. I knew it he will bring me there.
Once we reached the summit, there are lots of people. We parked the car and heading to centre of the park. We just hanging seeing people here and there, and the day were getting dark. Having a snack and sipped hot chocolate in that kind of atmosphere, really, really bring back all the sweet memories. We just sit and keep continuing look at thousands people around. It supposes to be the nicest moment, but not any more. To be in Genting with him was one I want to do with him, during our “coupling” time. But it just only happen when everything was over. Anyway, I treasured the moment.
When I remember, all those days, when I’m so “empty”. I can’t describe the best word for that. When everything is wrong is right for me. When I always do for what I can’t do actually. When there is DOESN’T can be DO, for me. When there is absolutely NO can be YES, that time. When those time, I never care less or more. I will just go for it, as long it will make me happy.
Initially, everything was changed now. I can’t do whatever I want. Since I’ve learned and know bad and good, I must to be more precisely for what I want to do. Since I know what is bad and what is good or which is bad or which is good, so I have to be more alert to such things.
Deep inside, I’m still weak. I wish that I can hold him tightly, in the deep cold open space. Wish that we can warm each other and enjoy all the pleasure as much as we want. Still, I felt lucky that I can “hold” all those wishes, even deep inside I’m really want to do it. I’m not an angel, I’m only human. I just can’t stand it for sometimes.
We left the summit at 8pm. I dropped him and we bid goodbye. I thank him for spending the time with me. And I was absolutely felt so different this time. But, I believe, the friendship will remain forever.
I know he can’t do anything. He even does not have any “power” to make a change. He got other responsibilities. And I’m still respecting him for that. That what a man should do.
And for me, I should keep myself to stay far away from him onwards. I cannot keep continue contact him or make any meeting, even a casual meeting. More or less, sometimes, I feel, I’m the bad one. Hmmmmm.
Anyway, I’ve been to Genting. And you can guess with whom, right?
The moment I reached the summit of Genting, I told myself, I have to write on this (about Genting) in my blog. I want to. It was the first time for me and I don’t know for how many times for “him”.
This trip to Genting is not in a plan as well. I’m not into planning in everything I want to do. Not all, except in work purpose. So, I was in Genting on the X’mas eve.
I never had been there before. I’ve heard and saw many interesting “things’ happening up there. Since then, I just wanna be there and experience it by myself. And I was there, at last, last Saturday.
We left KL at about 5pm and reached there an hour later. I was surprised, he brought me there. We were not so good the day before. Even he was late an hour. I thought he was canceled the meeting. We were just planned for dining at our favorite place. Nothing than just a casual meeting. But, thing was changed when he drove after we had our meal in one of the popular stall somewhere in Melawati. I’m not familiar with the places up there. But I’m started noticed that we were heading to Genting when he heading to Kuantan express way. I knew it he will bring me there.
Once we reached the summit, there are lots of people. We parked the car and heading to centre of the park. We just hanging seeing people here and there, and the day were getting dark. Having a snack and sipped hot chocolate in that kind of atmosphere, really, really bring back all the sweet memories. We just sit and keep continuing look at thousands people around. It supposes to be the nicest moment, but not any more. To be in Genting with him was one I want to do with him, during our “coupling” time. But it just only happen when everything was over. Anyway, I treasured the moment.
When I remember, all those days, when I’m so “empty”. I can’t describe the best word for that. When everything is wrong is right for me. When I always do for what I can’t do actually. When there is DOESN’T can be DO, for me. When there is absolutely NO can be YES, that time. When those time, I never care less or more. I will just go for it, as long it will make me happy.
Initially, everything was changed now. I can’t do whatever I want. Since I’ve learned and know bad and good, I must to be more precisely for what I want to do. Since I know what is bad and what is good or which is bad or which is good, so I have to be more alert to such things.
Deep inside, I’m still weak. I wish that I can hold him tightly, in the deep cold open space. Wish that we can warm each other and enjoy all the pleasure as much as we want. Still, I felt lucky that I can “hold” all those wishes, even deep inside I’m really want to do it. I’m not an angel, I’m only human. I just can’t stand it for sometimes.
We left the summit at 8pm. I dropped him and we bid goodbye. I thank him for spending the time with me. And I was absolutely felt so different this time. But, I believe, the friendship will remain forever.
I know he can’t do anything. He even does not have any “power” to make a change. He got other responsibilities. And I’m still respecting him for that. That what a man should do.
And for me, I should keep myself to stay far away from him onwards. I cannot keep continue contact him or make any meeting, even a casual meeting. More or less, sometimes, I feel, I’m the bad one. Hmmmmm.
Anyway, I’ve been to Genting. And you can guess with whom, right?
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