One Moment

Hi,

It’s Friday again.
I was really busy till I don’t have a time to write at least an entry this week. But anyway, I’ve made up my mind that I have to write, at least something.

I’ve been busy, but the mean time, I was missing my time for reading and writing here. I got so many things to write in, but we will see, what will come out shortly.

Well, at the same day last week, I was with abg, again. I was with him preciously when I as traveled almost an hour with dida to reach him, out from this town. And last week, again, I was with him and having such a good dinner together. We had traveled another an hour to the place. Had a good time and had talked into so many things.

Now, abg is still live separately with kakak. It was almost 2 weeks now. He only got home in the afternoon to see his beloved son. And almost every night since that day he would end up spending his night whether in his sister’s place or hotel.

Kakak is still as the same as before. Not much changing. She might felt easy without abg around. She never asked him to come back home or never mentioned abt it anymore. Sae goes to the little girl, she never bother her father anymore.

I was quite worried with the situation recently. Abg was telling me that he will going to stay like this for another few weeks. He still sad for what they’ve did to him. He never wanted to listen anymore to what people around said about him and his family. People know almost everything now. But I’m always told abg just be patience for the time being.

By the meantime abg was preparing himself for his visiting to tanah suci, in April. I was happy and shed y tears when I heard that he’s going to perform him umrah. I told him, that was the good decision, especially in this critical moment. The fully fourteen days will be the good time for him to find his own time. I pray that Allah will help him to go through everything easily there.

For myself, I felt that I’m getting comfortable, at this moment. Nothing much changes as well. The feeling is still there. Maybe not strong enough, but I’m quite ready for anything coming shortly. Well, I do like him much more than before, but I’m still got the awareness not to go beyond the limit.

I felt much lucky that I’ve someone is about so care about me. I felt contented when I have him to talk to sometimes, when I’m so down. Felt happy, that he was there, whenever I need someone to call. Well, I’m much lucky, than before. Anyway I never still had any regret for the past. I’m still grateful for what Allah gave me for throughout many years.

I’m getting “stronger”, I guess. He taught me a lot. Especially about life. Well, I gained knowledge. I know much than before. He taught me, the proper way into being a good muslim. I am happy. At least I have a guideline. I’m really grateful to Allah for this.

I’m still praying. And I will keep praying. InsyaAllah. Someday, we will be together, with the bless from Allah. Amin.